thirty-one

a taglish number to sum up this day.
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so this is how the cookie crumbles

this is how the gig ends

sabi nga ng batikang si dr. bodjie:
"tapos ang boksing"

sabi ni claro:
"ang dali lang, para ka lang nagbasa ng komiks"

dude, pare, brod, chong...

girl, bruha, beng...

na-lintikan na ang pag-ibig

na-singko ka sa exams

nabullilyaso ang plano

kumulot ang pinarebond mong buhok

and i'm starting to lose my marbles over someone

losing my cool because my heels broke off

i tripped because of that big dark crack on the sidewalk

i didn't even see that coming.

mission impossible?

one word: break.

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crystal clear?

thirty

for some time- i haven't been inspired, you see. i almost forgot what it felt like being the one people told their... dark secrets to... because at one point in my life- i promised myself to stop thinking about others' problems because i've my own. but god knows how hard it is, not caring. especially when you realize that you actually developed a bond with some people- and you get a share of their pain... whether you like it or not.

recently- i'm on an emotional standstill... confused. i ask myself who my real friends are. does my high school barkada still care about what i do? why did i refuse to attend my grade school reunion, but still signed up on the attendance sheet and left as soon as people came in? why am i finding myself feeling scathed by the fact that... i am lost.

i've never felt lost in a very long time.

and no one seems to understand.

and if this turns out like a whiny emo rock song. i'll feel even more sorry

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life is a grand garden
like those ones
in castles far, far away.

those gardens
that have those mazes
green, tall, manicured shrubs

and you get lost in it the minute you step foot in it.

you walk farther and farther away...
then all you can see
is greenery.

nothing else.

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hmm.... is green an overused word?

twenty-nine

i'm going to make a frivolous entry because i feel particularly perky today. it's been a while since i blogged here- maybe it's because i have been uninspired for the longest time.

this one is called what is anticipation?

particularly dedicated to people who dream about forthcoming events.

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what is anticipation?

anticipation is shopping out for the perfect top
to show your perfect curves
to lure in the perfect hottie
for the perfect party


the band's playing
your flea market earrings jingling
playing out a
cosmopolitan beat that jives with

the color-play of the strobe lights
and the dance of the laser lights

anticipation is the urge to dance
your blues away

anticipation is the churning of your stomach
because of the fluttering butterflies inside it

waiting to be released from the cage
by an obscure stranger's kiss...

anticipation is the fast clicking of stilletos on the floor

it is in the sway of your hips

it is in the sweat that drips...

it is any wild night party's catalyst.

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i need hed kandi NOw!!!!